Sanza The Maid

 So I love TTRPGs but more combat heavy ones struggle with action economy so  I've thought of this "HEAT" system which you reach [in terms of mechanic] Ignition when you reach max heat and thats when your turn occurs. Additionally it makes "Reaction" economy easier to balance as well, since it consumes Heat as a trade off delaying your turn making choosing to simply "Tank" damage as a strategic tactic.  So this is the "Beta" version of  this system there will be a lot of corrections. I need a gaggle of nerds I can test game engines with fr-fr. That aside how the thought process is going so far is that you gain Heat equal to an enemies threat rating usually at the start of their turn [Some enemies may have an effect that makes heat generation step be at the end of their turn instead] which has two uses, if you reach your ignition point [lets say 5/5] then during any [opportunity] stage between enemy turns you can force that to be your turn fro...

    So I actually revised this post is gonna just be a contemporary "Here's what happened since you last saw this show" recap but then I had a minor schizo-fit and my personaity/idenity/memories got turned into Chrysalis Juice and poured into a blender so yesterday I was hardcore just lowkey shattered not...dramatically like while my emotions ran hot in all directions it had no duration or substance just a slow drip of notions, partial memories, feelings, remembering people I forgot that I forgot. Still picking up pieces today I'm very much "my feline armor has been sundered to reveal a quivering wide-eyed rabbit" underneath kinda beat. I feel...unusually soft, I don't have my rage, fangs or claws right now they'll come back, they always do I feel passive and kinda dumb tranny fem-pilled I don't really care to voice train but my voice is all soft cuz I got no bite behind it, no clever retorts. Ah whatever, we all need a vacation from ourselves ya...

 Materium - TCG STFU, know I've been dead my latest post has been in draft hell because I accidentally spilled my vindication and trying to get it back. [Also I accidentally spelled it PRGT which would be...Progect, not...Project...kill me]  This one is a TCG which the original projects were called "CALAMITY" and "Colours of the human heart" which are kinda gonna be combined into one game since CoHH was getting just into MTG 2.0 and Calamity...might still get its own due one day, these are all [the projects] in my google docs anyways but I figured I work best when bouncing of someone even if thats a parasocial relationship with the void and plus some of the mechanics that made CoHH would've been unique have ended up implemented some TCG elsewhere anyways also I was still worried about making it "Approachable" but nah Materiam is gonna be full post just whatever I think is based. Also like any tweenager with an OC if you're deadset on taking it,...

     You're a goddamn hypocrite ya know that? You're always bitching about your receptiveness to rejectionhow you need constant assurance and affirmations but then what? Two months of not talking to me proper, I constantly reach out to you tryna talk or hangout and I get "sorry busy with BF" and you just...expected our friendship to fucking wait, say how I've given you and shown you so much that you can never repay but just remembering I fuckin' exist? Ah...thats too much huh. I don't give a shit okay, I already fucking mourned, bargained, attempted to ressucitate our friendship and it din't work alright? I'm not even fucking mad at you as a person and believe it or not I'm happy for you I'm happy I helped you figure out who the fuck you were and got you to the places you need to be but we aren't fucking friends. Then you tell me you're actually doing great   with all your other friends, fixed all the mistakes, patched the misunders...

Now that ALT's have been repurposed updates will be used for inbetween major posts, tomorrow i'm back on the horse for all projects [Programming, Gym, Guitar..god I actually miss all these just the spiral than sick] I mean I'm not CURED but waiting for perfection means giving up a lot of time to get my wants met. Additionally tryna help Ember actually start E, we'll see how that goes. Understandably they're hesitant because the political environment but we're damned either way so might as well live candidly, atleast when the bullet hits there's a few less regrets ya know? I've been having to think about that a lot lately, won't lie drives me to screaming tears but my philosophy of gotta live like you mean it cuz you might get capped tomorrow is a lil too real now. My brother isn't talking to me right now, guess dating apps embarrassed him which is good in a way but I get its not fun to realize where you stand with strangers and the parts of you t...

  WELCOME ONE AND ALL TO SANZA THE MAID'S                                       Bitch'a'thon     So as we all know [or don't since like a bad time travel movie you guys live post to post while i drift between, backwards, forward and parallel to them] anyways I said the ALT's would be getting a lil more purpose, I think thats the shape of all things no matter how abstract it is in the start it always ends up taking shape [I just got depressed, I started watching TADC with Puppy Paladin and since we don't hang anymore...not sure I'm gonna watch the rest of it, wouldn't be the first time I'm okay just dropping media because the person that the color hue matched stopped bein' round] you always end up with purpose, not always the purpose you thought it would begin with in the start and certainly not the direction you thought it would be....just how it goes ya know...

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