Sanza The Maid

I don't like burning bridges, it always makes me feel filthy but I don't think I know anything else, stability doesn't come naturally to me, I had it for a second then time passes and things return to the law of averages, the law of how things were before are how they are again. For what it's worth after I get king repaired I'm supposed to do some therapy, we'll see how that goes. Caring about the high score is getting stranger as I get more apathetic, most goals are. Of course i selfishly want someone to fight for me but that fantasy isn't the reason I burn bridges, it's because I definitely care too much for a failing structure 

 Long time no see, I wish I had just great things to say, so we'll start with the good, I've been going to the gym for four days straight, my apartment is cleaner and arguably safe for humans to live in and I'm pretty close to snowbear,unfortunately that was the positive and I really wish this was just a caseof "internet persona goes missing because their life panned out" but I doubt anyone checks this after vanishing for so long so onto the not so great, I've nasically dwindled down to one friend that being snowy and I'm feeling it, dawg I am feeling it, I've continued my self harm and started slowly crawling back into my psychosis that I had managed to escape in my teens, good news is I wasn't drinking while going to the gy, also my fucking hormones are all outta whack cuz im a poor bitchwhich means couldnt get my stupid medication so thats..been fun. So its just me and you again void, been in my head, reviewing a lot of my life to this point, th...