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 Welcome back Censorcity to another lovely day! Atleast I hope it was, I literally washed down my morning medication with a shot of Nyquil and fucking EEPY-MEEMY the whole day away had some neat dreams, sadly can't transcribe them they are already beyond faded. So I guess today's topics are up in the air should they be:

The nature of relationships [option 1]
Excitment for tomorrow since I get my packages [option 2]
or maximum amounts of schizo-posting [option 3]

    If you answered "An indeterminent mix of all of the above" you'd be correct. Also its come to my attention my type might be "Washed up has-been" which I'm sure I'll fully process in about a decade, but in the meantime I'll just be serenaded by losers tales of their glory days and their main story they've told for the N-th time. My dear friend Red heard I wanted to do Maidcore and sent me the most aggressive rendition of "Noise" [they were missing about two layers for noise but for someone who used to only tolerate my music choices it was a lovely gesture and made an actual Maid name too, for reference a lifetime ago they wanted to make a band with me in it but it was very much so his dream and vision for its vibe, music and things like that I wouldn't min co-producing some stuff and a duet if he just has a Maidsona and its not meing attached to a band of his this time around. I guess since I'll have a laptop no excuse not to learn programming thats been a budding desire for a second but it would be nice to learn a langauge, I personally wanna learn assembly I know theres no reason to learning it since its the coding equivalent to latin, while all words come from it and its technically the grandfather langauge learning it and applying it in the modern world is very difficult regardless it seems cool and thats what I wanna do this lifetime around, do things I find awesome even if its just me alone who finds it cool! So coding and using Reaper for making my music and ofc spending an hour or two a day minimum learning the guitar until I can actually play decent is the angle we got going on! Though I worry a lot about my friend the Puppy Paladin who's requested that no matter what I don't shorten their psudeonym to PP.

    So PP- nah I'm fucking around, but Paladin hasn't really dated, like to the point they consider two of their high school flings as actual experiences. Which is.."fine'? but still means they're struggling I managed to Con persuade them into trying a dating app which has been validating for them and their transition, to be honest I'm a little jealous even though I don't need to date right now I'm jealous of exactly how much attention they got but rather they get it for their growth than me getting it for meaningless ego pandering. They dated a kinda nothing burger chaser than when they wanted to clarify their needs since they believed deception is required for intimacy [ew] he was like "damn, bye" which sucks but as their like first actual dating experience obv hit them way harder than it should've but now they're tryna date someone named MArshall [hah, dog-ass name] and while this Marshall seems good they're doing it once again, one date and they can't saying how they miss them oh I worry for the Puppy Paladin, though they wouldn't be themselves if they weren't so hopeless so ces't la vi~ My only hope is this Marshall is cool enough that Paladin being overdoting doesn't backfire on her at all and more selfishly I hope he's cool enough to go out clubbing with and stuff I'd really hate to lose Paladin as part of my outing group but I understand if that becomes the case. I didn't mean to date personally, I just needed help with rent and I won't lie it was a closer to a facade at the start but overtime Starling grew on me and before I knew it I had a muzzle that I din't completely hate, but she lets me slip free and howl/ravage when I need it so can't complain too hard. Personally I like being free and unbound, being able to kinda interact with people however I please without fear of that hurting anyone else but from my salacious single period I know thats not even the case then, jealousy and possesiveness will still occur regardless but I don't think its a bad thing, if we never wanted to be wanted we wouldn't ever let anyone close.

    Think I could stream shitty mobile games lul. Jokes aside my brother says I should be a streamer if I get an actual decent rig after I move I'd be seriously tempted to I'd be just your run of the mill "Variety Streamer" which is code for just fucking have screen share on and be overly reactive, I don't think I'd start decent but I think I could learn oh and obv I'm excited for my packages it'll be nice to just have a fucking laptop again, turns out getting a laptop that can actually do anything for under 200 is kinda a pain so I got a refurbished one I'm hoping that it can turn into my little war machine just fine mostly for just day to day use and production stuff I'm not expecting it to run any games maybe Lua but everyone hates roblox now so probably not maybe some writing again it has been ages but I don't trust myself to keep on top of it I mean this is only 6 posts deep and I'm impressed I've even kept that on top of it! [Sanza Tangent side note: While everyones got an edgy boi they love and Alucard usually wins by a mile mine would be between  Abel from blood trinity or "Beyond the Grave"/Brandon Heat from Grave gun something about powerful nerds that still have some humility and charm is an absolute panty soaker ya know? Obviously the G.O.R.E remake version of graves is my fave [side-side note I miss the unapologetically edgy good characters from the early 2000's]] and honestly its dumb but I'm super excited to sticker bomb the both of my new items to hell and back, hell my baseball bat Roxxane isliterally sticker bombed to the point you can't see the steel underneath anymore. [I miss playing drunk baseball, I hope I can again soon.]

    Last one, schizo posting? truth is I slept around 13 hours so my humors are full and fully aligned for now. Oh made a Patreon, since I'm gonna be making sounds soon, calling it music is jumping the gun

Anyways done for the day, Sincerely yours Sanzabooku the Maid