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     You can tell when someones missing you because they start to admire the parts they found annoying, I guess an inspirer for my music as well a dear friend sent me a short shoegaze mix, well his approximation the aggressive ramp near the second half was hardly in spirit but that makes it more in spirit in my opinion, bought all the jazz to get started myself I can feel the roar and I need to outpace it this time, lest I get caught in its wake again.That was honestly more of a welcome surprise than anything and I need to pay more attention when I'm transcribing something I'm riddled with spelling errors.

>Talk'bout anything in the world, blog is your oyster.

    Still sick, extra delulu today didn't get much sleep, so been up too long, got manic bought all the supplies I need to start recording anything just basic starter equipment but I'm a level 1 dork so not a bad start and I have no delusions I understand this will be a learning curve and journey which is...wild, I used to be so fucking impulsive and before than so apprehensive I never did anything, they were equally me but I like the current version of me the most even if its the most hate-crimeable. I feel the same way [obviosly to a lesser suicidal extent] about trying to make some noise as I did about my estrogen the idlness isn't weighing me down and I'm excited to struggle and learn and who knows, it'd be nice to send Red [as in Red Panda] back some music for a change, though I'm more so waiting for them to figure ou they're a chick this whole time ;P at some point I'll have to give y'all the backstory [Stage Direction: Malacoda stares at an empty wall while an empty outdated bottle of antipsychotics slowly rolls off the stage]  the backstory of how we met also don't expect consistent format or attitude for any of these posts it depends on which Sanza is writing it that day [Just mood swings, not split personas or anything] but I mean as I blog obv I'll get better at formatting my posts to look more visually impressive I kinda feel like if your doing anything in life with any amount sincerity wether you mean to or not you'll accidently refine your skill in said area, atleast thats how I feel I'm a strong believer in the notion we can't but help growing and learning UNTIL we've decided we've learnt enough then we become stagnant and to truly always learn a small amount of humility and willingness to be incorrect must be maintained...or..I could be wrong ;P

    I wanna make an H-Novel game [I know, INSPIRED and UNIQUE] thats mecha based and your drift-level with the other characters determines how well you do in the mandatory battles, but kinda play withe the fuckboi nature of it if your harlot ass behavior causes doubt in the battle it raises the chance of injury or even death for the other characters plus would just be fun also wanna make a "long form" shooter called VERMIN

    Filling this blog is getting easier as I get used to just..typing out my thoughts, goals and ambitions ya know? Probably be a shorter post today given I'm hella delusional due the big ickies

PFPFPFP?! apparently don't download Barq [furry social app] as a joke or you might get jumpscared by a co-workers nude that you didn't even know was a furry and that fucking spicy. Life is fuckin' wild.

    Sorry short post today, I'm barely lucid as is.
            Sincelrely yours, Sanzabooku the Maid