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     Long time no see beloved void'o mine, well its been a wild weekend but a much needed one so we start on friday which I now have off which kinda sucks for puppy paladin she got shafted in thetrade so it'll proabably go the way of the Borzoid but I'm happy for them and their current partner regardless oh! Speaking of Borzoid I guess they've decided to try and reclaim me partially so I guess expect more Borzoid adventures this friday we went to a furry rave which was super fun! I defo need more punk spikes and chains to go with my outfits but I still got a decent amount of interaction and it was super fun! Sadly no hard drugs just lots of grass and alcohol X3 the music was already not bad, not great accidently broke a lot of props but no one noticed as well as got some Kandi braceltes and me and Borzy made one for eacother and exchanged which goes into my rules, any accessory/jewerlygiven to me with any sincererity must be worn till broken, yes even in the shower..mostly I prolly won't wear the kandi into the shower but metal jewelry always goes in even if it color clashes with my verdance, verdant, is verdance a way to modify the word? I mean regardless I did it anyways and yeah not as much DreadPosting today because well..my humors kinda are actualy aligned that outing was very needed oh another major thing is me and Red talked and so first things they say to call them by their name "Cuz theya in't no bitch" so Charlotte and I had like a HEAVY talk, like fucking heavy but thats what happens when god puts to highly reactive BPD bitches in a blender and says "have at it" and like any good anime on the battlefield with our blades drawn she exclaims "It was all for you!" so yeah past love, lust and infactuation I guess we're just bound to one another its a big weight off my shoulder cuz I won't lie I have a constant fear with any  relationship in my life that I'm overdedicating/care more so that tends to lead to me being guarded and "prickly" but I've broken all the armor and mine has been too I know where I stand fearlessly with everyone in my life now and its...nice, I know the CoF thing is real and gonna work even if its just me and Starling or...just me honestly who makes it there. [good fucking lord my gramamr sucks] so we did the rave then we prowled, ended up at a maverick with a nazi clerk which wasn't amazing  but we survived and then we headed back, Borzy fell asleep on my lap as I pet her hair and got to know one of the new GF's of their polycule tribe don't think they were a fan of that but that makes sense Borzy and Izzet kinda let me just run around as I please and it looks like some super bias.[Izzet will be the name for Borzy's wife, shes an actual friend of mine] oh yeah the thing with Charlotte took like three hours and a lot of alcohol on both our ends so it was a very carthartic night but it was good oh yeah they had me offer to Ganesh which was interestingI already have my house god of Katsucola which I give like thrice a month..? Ciggies and fill their lil cup with the nicest alcohol i currently have onhand and he does his part, ward of tragedy but their Ganesh is about removing obstacles and finding the next path in life and hoenstly for their clan its been exceedingly effective, enough to turn any skeptic into a pagan thats for sure. So I felt like a foreign diplomat, gave my offering of a heath bar [he likes sweets apparently~] and we'll seewhat happens, Eevee appeared directly after this so read that how you will [long time....acquaintance I suppose] but neither of us feel messy right now so that's proabably a good sign, as for saturday I just rested I've been ill with something a fat secondas I've bitched before but proper hydration, rest and not smoking/drinking for this month [not super happy about this one -w-] should help me speedrun this or atleast just allow it to fucking pass lul, more to come I usually post these at night its da fucking day meaning a lot hasn't even happened yet uh...on top of my other daily missions! [for exp grinding ofc] gonna start atleast exercising for 30 minutes which like my blog means really every 1-3 days but still consistent nonetheless so this is Sanza logging off for now, gonna play guitar cuz im still trash, figure out where im supposed to stand with Eevee and if I have enough energy probably learn the base for [DFS]

Name updates: [Borzoid] --> [Lucky],  [Starling] ---> [Kit], [Red] --> [Charlotte]

well its now my normal writing time so updates, uh Eevee still feels like eevee as part of my "Round table" not as in like a group of super close knit knights but as in people who seem to constantly spawn in and out of my life haphazardly no hate to any of them just how they are, I know how I am and I'm best enjoyed in healthy digestible portions, lets see what else so it was my moms birthday, it was fun to hang out with her nothing super noteable out of the party was just nice to vibe with her and her group, got along with all them Kit was nervous of the new folks but they liked her jello cake so chalk this one up to a win. Then I napped off the alch-a-mah'ols sso I could show up to work proper and I guess I'm just gonna rant to you more talked to Puppy Paladin about their plans they're probably not gonna make it to CoF with me anymore because they gotta focus on their relationship which is fine, I support it.

Regardless of anything I gotta make it, me and Charlotte both.

beyond that mostly just need to make up for lost guitar time didn't practice at all this weekend same thing for my coding but its important to take it into stride as you enjoy it, pointless if you're not enjoying it, secret i've learned to being able to pursue things since I also have more free time on the 'puter when im in the [redacted] role when not supervisor I'll defo do some more creative writing cuz I wanna make a story called stray dog but I already ranted on it, I got more direction on how I want it go, a semi-surreal schizo-ish exploration of being a dirty youth, not saying it'll be any good but I'll get what I need in the universe out there.

For the forseeable now, this has been your truly predeparted, Sanzabooku the maid.

[Also eevee subscribe to my only fans you coward]