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 So I'm usually bad about posting on my blog during the weekend but I have a laptop now so now I have no excuse! So its sunday currently and we did have a funeral for a nobody we didn't know to attend but my Starling has seemed to slept through the entire thing since she just got back onto her sleep meds, so 'd prefer her well rested personally, I think practicing self aware greed is a trait we can all benefit from. So saturday,woke up feeling like p.diddy...sucks I can't sing that anymore given the whole ya know  PEDO  thing that happened [been happening, RIP JustinBeiber we were far too cruel to you, hope you find peace now king] oh so one of the things I'm fucking with on my laptop is my background who's affectionately named TONI who'll be on the bottom of the post because apparently I'm a DAMN FOOL and don't know how the fuck to format images its all good as I add more images to my blog I'm sure I'll figure it out, oh named my guitar Roxxane was gonna be AsterVore but the former just felt more apropriate and correct though kinda like me gemger is fake so they go by anything [King of anthromorphising, I know] [Also when it comes to claiming things I prefer to be king rather than queen, a king can exist solely a queen implies that the king slot is always present and most likely taken, bleh] also good lordI feel a lil sick turns out blood loss makes the booze flow quicker [accidently slit my ankle while shaving which wasn't great especially when Starling came to check on me and just sees the bathtub floor covered in blood and me pulling flesh out of my razor non-chalantly] so despite only drinking a handful of beers and two shots got soemwhere decent. Most of the day was errands and idle prep work for the clurb, was mostly chilling we WERE supposed to meet at the club independently at 10PM, however like any plan it never survives contact and we met at my place at 10:25 to get ready and head out also brb I wanna finish my ciggy. Aight back, I mean I know to you the viewer no time passed but that was like 7 minutes for me and my stomach feels way better, nicotine always helps me regulate my humors. anyways so we start clurbing like we were supposed to, Puppy Paladin impressing his new boi covers everyones entry fee which  I'm not gonna fight also just figuered out how to format the photo

<------ this is Toni



So we get to the club and the club I like cuz its usually like a "losers only" club but I guess its popping on social media because it had a proper line and im not talking the 9PM line cuz its just opening I mean a LINE full of broccoli heads [the dumbass trendy haircuts the youth do these days, god makes me feel old] which I have mixed feelings on they can be douchey but ay as long as they learn its a no flex zone and enjoy all the whack ass shit they see and experience then who am I to gatekeep ya know? Also I realized I'm the only one left in my friend group left [that I go on outings with, Red and Borzoid still exist] that still smokes, I realized thats why I prowl around the clubs different sections as much because I don't go to the smoking lounges as much, huh. Anyways so we manage to get in, go to the Karaoke room, I pitch in my song, get to know PP's BF which doesn't have a blogside name yet till I know they're sticking, I think thats only fair. Kinda whacked for a second cuz I was expecting a more masc-y outfit given their wanted presentation but its fetish night and rules are fake. So get acquainted, played nice tried to control my language, limited my drinking and didn't peer pressure at all, still got some release but it was a lil stiffled since I usually like to howl alas, a howl of one is no howl at all? Perhaps my comrades saw the harvest hung moon and felt that roar too, or perhps behind my static eyes I over-animate the world and its just the silence between the artifical notes i hear thats the gospel. It'd be boring but boring is usuaully the truth, ces't la vi. Back to the subject on hand we ended up getting the pool table which was fun, of curse me being sloshy [but not sloshed~] was an active detriment to our team plus I was singing along with the stage as I usually do, I sang absolute territory and introduced a new generation of losers to one of my favorite artists, doing my lords work out here and it was great I was in my full outfit, doing a lil dance, I had people singing along and dancing at the abse of the stage and I'm pretty sure I'm on tiktok now which is cool so if anyone sees a catgirl maid singing on stage lemme know lul. Then we had a selective mutism girl come hang around us, she was excited to be at the club it was her first time and bruh she looked like 17, apparently she was 30 and had been on a care routine since like 6 because her mom works at a company which threw me the fuck off, apparently made dating hard cuz she was pedo bait, heart goes out to her. some dumbass was tryna hit on her aggressively so we put her under our wing, played a game against the dumbass and he had no clue how close we were to jumping him, cripple or not lul. Then we all departed, which wasn't bad since we actually made it till closing which color me surprised thought the new BF ddin't roll like that, I stand corrected. Went home, watched some Kpop demon hunt since its Starling's comfort movie RN and then passed the fuck out. I realizesinceI wasbusy at work friday you guys didn't get a post either [weird typing guys, my blog has no viewers its to a future hypothetical,don't hate it just strange how I'm writing for you, the might-be, the might not-be in the cavalcade that is chance will these words ever meet you or is it just an echoless ritual?] because I showed up was volun-told to be supervisor a week early then justkinda thrown in? I also realized that since im no longer the [redacted] I get a [redacted] now, so I kinda got to know them, they're a gooner who just kinda chills play social games [which we bonded being groomed on the internet, as one does] and from the cold north where there's nothing to do but debauchery and drinking, got no friends so my need to adopt losers kicked in so we'll see if I made any meaningful progress or were they tryna satiateme because we're basically locked in a room with eachother for 8 hours because of what our job is. Obv they'll get a blogside name if we connect at all,was a lil messy but got through the shift mostly because thanfully not a single incident happened that night i need to learn to supervise better I was a backup ages ago andI have the confidence and knowledge just need more practice bleh. anyways I think thats all for now, I'm sure I'll retroactively mention things as I recall but this is your darling catgirl bidding adieu

            Sincerely, Sanzabooku the [cat]Maid