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Can you feel your face when you wake up or does it stay numb for a few hours?
Guess morning for me, night for everyone else I don't hate being a nightwalker but it certainly is a different form of existence, there's a sacredness to being able to exist during the twilight hours that all else ceases to be but a lonliness unique to feeling as if you exist in opposition to the grande world as a whole. Got a lot of wandering thoughts for today
No.1: I miss you, or atleast...I want to miss you, I think the magnitude it hurt me over you when we started parting ways just due tot he nature of distance and time ravaged me much more than you, perhaps for that same reason my dear borzoid thats why it no longer tears at me, you still haunt some of my dreams and sometimes I want to message you, oh in a soft shamefulness the kind that while you're feeling flustered you can't help but smile I think of all the times I'd text you drunk or we'd make excuses for why we'd have to share a bed or hang out just another day longer, and longer till our hangouts turned into adventures and then into epic-long quests, you say I saved you and I'm glad I did but thats all I was, a loving gause and now that your healed when the afterthought of me occurs I hear from you, despite all that I wish you a great life, but I can't forget you fast enough.
No.2: Slept wrong, back fucking hurts ;_; [Also do you treat emoticons as words or punctuation?]
No.3 So agenda number three is I actually gotta start learning the guitar, especially if I wanna make maid-core music [HUZZAH THE BLOG NAME NOW MAKES FUCKING SENSE] but in the mean time since equipment cost money I got a one-direction baby's first guitar thing my Starling gave me, so like a starter weapon in a JRPG I must master this before I set my ambitions higher.
No.4 I'm nearly done with V.1 of the blog! Its horrendous but I like it and since this is my den and not yours thats all that matters, think for now its done till I learn any CSS stuff after all learning programming is the damned destiny of all my kin.
No.5 I play dumbass mobile games at work for some stiffling sense of..not accomplishment but time passing X-ing out all the things to unlock in them lets me know that the time passing is real, when I have the mental fortitude for it I do those dumb "play games for gift card"-ass apps, BTW if you ever wanna do that dumb thing lemme know ill give you my friend ref code [same for Warframe].
No.6 Im thinking about re-approaching the card game I was working on completely before it kinda just felt like a 50/50 smash of Yugioh and MTG so now I wanna cultivate a specific Vibe, right now something I'm thinking about is I want to take advantage of the fact they are cards you know piles, tucking, face up, face down, sideways, upside down in the deck, upside in the deck, sideways in the deck. Just fully embrace they are cards but I also hate victory point systems they aren't like inherently inferior or anything I just like the feeling of personally beating my opponent to death.
All ramblings and notions for now
Sincerely Yours; Sanzabooku The Maid
Guess morning for me, night for everyone else I don't hate being a nightwalker but it certainly is a different form of existence, there's a sacredness to being able to exist during the twilight hours that all else ceases to be but a lonliness unique to feeling as if you exist in opposition to the grande world as a whole. Got a lot of wandering thoughts for today
No.1: I miss you, or atleast...I want to miss you, I think the magnitude it hurt me over you when we started parting ways just due tot he nature of distance and time ravaged me much more than you, perhaps for that same reason my dear borzoid thats why it no longer tears at me, you still haunt some of my dreams and sometimes I want to message you, oh in a soft shamefulness the kind that while you're feeling flustered you can't help but smile I think of all the times I'd text you drunk or we'd make excuses for why we'd have to share a bed or hang out just another day longer, and longer till our hangouts turned into adventures and then into epic-long quests, you say I saved you and I'm glad I did but thats all I was, a loving gause and now that your healed when the afterthought of me occurs I hear from you, despite all that I wish you a great life, but I can't forget you fast enough.
No.2: Slept wrong, back fucking hurts ;_; [Also do you treat emoticons as words or punctuation?]
No.3 So agenda number three is I actually gotta start learning the guitar, especially if I wanna make maid-core music [HUZZAH THE BLOG NAME NOW MAKES FUCKING SENSE] but in the mean time since equipment cost money I got a one-direction baby's first guitar thing my Starling gave me, so like a starter weapon in a JRPG I must master this before I set my ambitions higher.
No.4 I'm nearly done with V.1 of the blog! Its horrendous but I like it and since this is my den and not yours thats all that matters, think for now its done till I learn any CSS stuff after all learning programming is the damned destiny of all my kin.
No.5 I play dumbass mobile games at work for some stiffling sense of..not accomplishment but time passing X-ing out all the things to unlock in them lets me know that the time passing is real, when I have the mental fortitude for it I do those dumb "play games for gift card"-ass apps, BTW if you ever wanna do that dumb thing lemme know ill give you my friend ref code [same for Warframe].
No.6 Im thinking about re-approaching the card game I was working on completely before it kinda just felt like a 50/50 smash of Yugioh and MTG so now I wanna cultivate a specific Vibe, right now something I'm thinking about is I want to take advantage of the fact they are cards you know piles, tucking, face up, face down, sideways, upside down in the deck, upside in the deck, sideways in the deck. Just fully embrace they are cards but I also hate victory point systems they aren't like inherently inferior or anything I just like the feeling of personally beating my opponent to death.
All ramblings and notions for now
Sincerely Yours; Sanzabooku The Maid
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